Whats the worse thing that you can think of that a doctor can walk in a room and tell you? If you would have asked me before Friday, I would have said without a blink "you have HIV/AIDS." But I heard a few words this Friday that almost made me fall to my knees and cry.
When I first got in the little doctor room, I will remember this room because this is the room in which I received The News. The room number was 2-11. After the general weigh in, something told me to run! run away! lol but we proceeded on. The doctor took my blood pressure, and dont you know it she said " your blood pressure is sorta high, but were gonna do it again a little later because sometimes the first time we do it it can be a little high." Me being me, im thinking what ever and yep, later on in the visit when we did the test again it came back high again, so my doctor concluded my blood pressure. "cut back on all the salts and do something to relieve stress" is what she says, Oh yea I forgot to tell you she says im over weight by about 25 pounds but thats only have of it.
So this is where the killers come in, and ill just cut to the point, Im sitting here freezing my nads off while the doctor is looking at the blotches on my skin, eczema, and she begins to ask me about diabetes in my family, so I answer her questions then I ask why all the questions, she says "the blotches on your back look like the presence of some common form of diabetes, we will test you for it." Now if thats not bad enough, while the doc was doing an examination of my testicles, she says "there seems to be a growth here, this could be signs of testicular cancer." After that statement , I heard nothing else. I know she tried to tell me she would do more test, and it will be ok with new medicine these things can be taken care, but i did not care. This was not what I planed on hearing that day. So I did cry. Im not gonna lie.
The reason I titled this post this way, is because although the doctor told me all this bad news, the test haven't come back yet. This news made me cry and also made me realize that I have the best girlfriend ever, because she was the only person there with me when the doctor gave me this news. Im not even gonna sit here and act like this wasn't not the worse ish ive ever heard. But I did realize that until the test come back im not gonna sit and cry. I believe christ my lord does everything for a reason. So if you happen to read this, I want you to feel bad for me. This news hasn't changed my life yet. The key word in the title is MAY. Im gonna hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
